Florence and the Machine: New single Breath Of Life

As you know I am obsessed with Florence and the Machine. I worship her. Her voice is amazing as well as her style. Her technique for her singing is so amazing. It's controlled yet free which is very hard to get.
Anywho, she has a song in Snowwhite and the Huntsman and it's amazing! It's like a thousand Gods and Goddesses singing at you. It's Magic. I have fallen in love. her is a link to give it a listen.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/26/florence-and-the-machine-breath-of-life-snow-white_n_1456499.html?ref=fb&src=sp&comm_ref=false

Got sand in my blood

Love this.

Billabong 2012 Summer Swim

With New Zealand model, Zippora Seven.
Beautiful. 

Steady now...

I'm trying to keep hold of everything. School is almost over and i'm trying not to have a panic attack every day.

I'm trying to not see the negative

I'm trying to stop crying so much at night about my future, career and school.
Everything is so unsteady.
I hate not knowing if i will get into the second year of my school or not.

I hate not knowing

I hate not being able to see a glimmer of something ahead of me.
Unsteady ground is not a good place for me to be. I start to go crazy...I think it's a control thing.

I have to keep reminding myself that I'm still a kid and I need to let myself just enjoy summer and have fun. But in my eyes I am a couple of years behind. I feel like I can't slow down. I wanted to start acting at at least 16 years old. I know I have to be patient and that this training will make me a stronger actor. I have to trust in "The Plan" Whatever the fuck that is.
In everyone else's eyes i'm on track. So maybe I am and I'm just too eager to get what I want. I just have to keep telling myself to breathe and to not be so hard on myself. But what people don't realize is that if i don't get this I wont be me anymore. No one seems to understand that. I wont be me. It's why I exist. People don't understand that this isn't just "a job" It's something that will complete me.

I just want it so badly. And when you want something so badly you can start to go crazy...

Cosmic

I found this quote today and I am in love

“All of the rocky and metallic material we stand on, the iron in our blood, the calcium in our teeth, the carbon in our genes were produced billions of years ago in the interior of a red giant star. We are made of star stuff.”

two more weeks till summer vacation!

3 more weeks

So three more weeks till school is over and Summer vacation will begin

I need the break. i'm so tired.
I loved being here though. I learned a lot and am starting to understand how to do the thing I love. I mean really do it. No bullshit. No fucking around. No "performing". Just plain old being a person and feeling and showing it to the whole world. I can't wait to start getting work so I can show everyone that I can be great too. That I am not some "little actress"  I want to show everyone just how much I want to succeed and be recognized for it. But I also got to keep myself in check that I don't jump off the bridge too soon. I got to make sure I know how to land on my feet.
Can't wait for summer though. The 4th of july. Concerts. Hiking. Sun tans. Long boarding. Friends. Family.

Things I need to do/learn.

1. Get another tattoo

2. Learn how to longboard

3. grow my hair out longer

4. get more ombre going

5. Go vintage shopping

6. Get really really tan

7. Get a facial

8. Get more crazy stone rings

9. Get another ear piercing(Somewhere. I have no clue where.) 

10. Get my dark circles to go away so I can wear less makeup.

BOOM. 

Nisim Fast Shampoo and Conditioner

I WANT LONG MERMAID HAIR.
I am sick and tired of my awkward med. length hair. I take Vitamins I don't use any hot tools anymore. i always let my hair air dry. I do about everything to get my hair long and healthy. BUT I AM SOOO IMPATIENT. So I came across this product online and read a lot of reviews, watched a lot of reviews from youtube etc and I decided to get it.
So hopefully it works because obviously looking at pictures of girls with long hair hasn't made mine grow any faster. *sigh*  if onlyy.
I will let you know what happens.

one dayy beautiful long haired ladies...I shall be one of you

SUNDAY

Ugh. I still have a bunches of  homework to do.
My blog is a distraction.
But I love it.
 Monday tomorrow.
Leggo.